Dark Glow

The dark fires have begun to trace their way through my veins once more. It was only last night that I realised the darkening. But this darkness is familiar, comfortable. I walked out of the large, deserted garden with a renewed sense of purpose. I am to protect my core from external sources that can either shake it, or destroy it completely. I must shield my beliefs and personality from being tampered with, and this is the way to do it. I was musing quietly to myself as the ancient, twisted trees shivered in the cool breeze. I am ready for any attack, mentally and physically prepared. I fight alone, as I have always done, because people and their emotions are unreliable, and prone to changing their minds. I will always be alone, a wolf who screams at the moon every night. But the time has come to free myself from the chains that tie me down, because it is only recently that I realised my freedom is limited. So this is it. As my aura darkens, it makes me seem colder and crueler, and I don't expect anyone to understand why I am doing this. Let's just say I'm a vengeful creature. My third J has fled my wrath, and while it is entirely possible for me to track him down, I choose to let him go. What's in his head right now is torment enough.

Dark Blues

一朵云能载多少思念的寄托
再忽然相遇街头
当我们擦身而过 那短短一秒钟
都明白 什么都变了

一转身谁能把感慨拋在脑后
在事过境迁以后
这段情就算曾经 刻骨且铭心过
过去了 又改变什么

地球它又 公转了几周了

我不难过 甚至真心希望你能幸福
当我了解你只能活在记忆里头
我不恨你了 甚至原谅你的残酷理由
当我了解不爱了 连回忆 都是负荷

浓情爱恋 都已陌生了

我不难过 甚至真心希望你能幸福
当我了解你只能活在记忆里头
我不恨你了 甚至感谢这样不期而遇
当我从你眼中发现我已是陌生人了
我已是 陌生人了

We meet and part just like clouds.

Dark Weapons

I have restocked my arsenal, most of which was lost in the great battle with J. I have not slept, but who cares? My energy levels are skyrocketing. I just need a few more things to complete the set. I have returned to my roots, humbled by how much I've lost, how much I've forgotten, but also proud because I now have enough experience to rein myself in before I spiral out of control again. If nothing else, you've taught me that much, my two Js. The welcome from my fellows surprised me. I am new to the fold, but also more skilled than any of them. Yet still I hesitate to seal the deal by inking down the powerful words that will bind me to them. They don't have much to teach me, I have all I need in my black bag. Their knowledge is impressive, and I was given the rare chance of peeking into their weathered books. *sigh* The moon shone down on me while I contemplated my next move in the garden. A few years ago, strengthening what I brought to life would be unthinkable, an act which would have gone against everything I believed in. Now I'm not so sure. I know what I have to do to erase what has happened, or at least alter the dangerous course I've put him on. A shadowed whisper at the back of my mind wants me to further what I've done. The better part of me knows it will leave him broken. But the darker part of me wants to toy with him, and force him to understand that there have always been and will always be greater powers at work in this world. Again, choices. Never mind. I have my weapons with me, and I will leave this place in half an hour whole and strong once more, the two Js be damned. This is my chosen path, and nothing on this Earth, above and below, will keep me away. To my third J...it's only fair that you were warned beforehand. Now there's no turning back, and I never leave anything I do unfinished. Dark and light, I am both. But I guarantee you will see me as the devil himself when I finish with you.
This will be fun.

Dark Shadow

The darkness that has been swirling around me unseen has solidified. After weeks and months of light, it has finally found a chink in my armour. My sandman has mysteriously vanished, and at a time when I really could use some rest, I am denied even that. Fuck. I'm sitting in the garden, with coke and cigarettes, and I am determined to sit out the night and wait for the current wave of darkness to pass. Soon my thoughts will stabilise, and the murder of crows will leave me when they realise that my humanity will be my salvation. That with my darkness comes light, and I will never be one without the other. Then the crows will leave me, and I will be sane once more. But for now, Night rules with her minions of darkness, and my candle grows dim. I'm tired of fighting, but I also know that I will never lay my swords down when faced with a fight. I'm waiting for dawn to break, and for the Solar Chariot to burn this latest layer of darkness away from the world and from me. I'm trying. I'm trying. I'm trying my hardest to fight these demons on my own. But sometimes, we all need a little outside help. I don't want to do this on my own, but sometimes, that's how it is. And this is how it will be from now on. My darkness will be my own to fight. And in my moments of light, I hope to negate whatever wrongs I may have done by helping everyone I can.
A lone wolf howls at the full moon.